Happy Birthday To Me

Yes! I thank God for this day! Thank YOU for another year of existence. Thank you, GOD, for giving me precious life. For all the wonders, goodness, guidance and patience YOU bestowed upon me, I am forever grateful!


It is my first time to show to the whole world that I am celebrating my natal day today. For the past years that I'm using the popular social networking site - the facebook - I don't really show my birthday on my profile. It's because I just want to be in quiet mode every time my birthday comes. The truth is I just want to stay away from questions coming from so many people asking why I'm still single and when will I get married. Sometimes I really got annoyed of it.  A certain colleague spoke ironic words towards me. I just can't ignore the hurt it caused me. I was offended and felt insulted by his ill-remarks. I just don't know why there are some insensitive people who really can't hold their tongue and happy to hurt others through giving sarcastic remarks. 


Thanks to my best friend Roni for giving me encouraging and inspiring words that really melted my heart. It is my special day and it is the best thing for me to celebrate and be happy and thankful for the gift of life given to me by our Creator. For such beautiful words, I showed my birthday on my facebook profile. 


I waited until the clock turned 12:00 am and posted a birthday prayer on my facebook wall. I was really overwhelmed and felt so much joy for all the people who remembered and greeted me through text messages, calls, facebook likes, comments and private messages. I've just realized there's a lot of people who really cares for me and it melts my heart. I can feel their love and care and through them I feel within my heart God's  immeasurable love and overflowing graces.


This message of my friend Roni touches and melts my heart. I'm speechless because I don't know what are the best words that would describe the feelings within me when I read it:

Lord, we thank you for blessing us with someone like Cathy. She has been one of the best gift you have given me & my family. Her unyielding love & compassion has been her most favorable traits. In times when I am in lost & in doubt she reminds me to stood by my faith. I was then lost & desolate Lord but she remains to be my pillar of strenght. You let us both met along the way & started a friendship that we will treasure in every way. I pray for her health, safety & happiness Father that you may bless her everyday. For she deserves all the love & happiness the world can give.
Amen.

*Happy Happy Birthday my dearest friend. Thank you for your love, compassion & kind heart. I will always be grateful to you for the prayers & strength you have endowed in me. Without your kindness I wouldn't be so happy with all the blessing I have, most especially for having KD. You are a blessing to everyone & I am so proud, lucky & grateful for I have a friend in you. I pray for your health, happiness & safety my friend. Have a happy birthday. You had your early gift earlier seeing derek hahahaha. Peace. Love you.*

I attended two masses, one from 7:45 am mass at St. Joseph Shrine at Cubao, Quezon City and 12:15 noon mass at Cathedral Shrine of Good Shepherd here at Fairview,Quezon City. Then I went to SM Fairview Mall to renew my Sun Cellular postpaid line and got my free phone, the black Samsung Galaxy Y. Yesterday, I gave birthday treat to my work colleagues at our department. I set my post-birthday celebration with my close friends on January. It's because I have some important things to do.


God knows what's the fervent desire and wish of my heart and I believe He will grant it at His Most Perfect Time according to His Will. 


Thank you so much FATHER ALMIGHTY for the gift of life! Amen.

A Little Piece of Me

I came from a broken family and I don't deny it. Being one and also identified as an illegitimate child ain't easy to accept. I've been hurt and cried a bucket of tears in knowing the truth. But realizing that there's no good thing I could gain on being rebellious and dwelling on the past, I accepted my fate and decided to go on with my life. I let God direct me to the right pathway of life. I studied well, learned many things not only from the four sides of classroom but also from all the people who taught me how to persevere and strive on what I wanted to be. There are so many times I want to give up but still with the grace of God I moved on. I worked hard and prayed hard asking for guidance and strength to go on.

I vividly remember the days when I want and eager enough to enroll in a bachelor's degree a year after I finished my vocational course. I enrolled and became a working student just to be able to pursue my education. I learned to be frugal so that I could sustain my other needs, manage time and prioritize things to meet deadlines. I learned how not to take people I love for granted. I learned to sacrifice my love for someone special and face the terrible moment when I lose and let him go. I learned to get along well with other people while living far from my family. Eventually, I saw the light at the end of the dark tunnel when I received my bachelor's diploma.

Looking back, I feel so much blessed and grateful to God for where I am right now. I have a stable job with one of the prestigious institution of my country. I enjoy life's journey with my family, friends, colleagues and acquaintances. Still unavoidable set of circumstances may come my way, but I know I do carried suitcase of courage and faith in God to win in the battles of life.

On My 2011 Wishlist

I know I'm a bit late for my year 2011 wishlist. But still I want to make this because I was inspired to do so. Last year, almost all of my wishes came true and that's the reason why I want to make it. As what I've  read from Chinese Astrology, this 2011 Year of the Rabbit will be a favorable year for those who born under the Year of the Sheep/Goat. I'm belong to it and hoping it will.

There are some quite unattainable wishes on my list within the year but I'm still hopeful and fervently praying that God will grant them. In the end, my lips would say "God, Your will be done." You're the Only One who knows the best for me.

On my 2011 Wish List are:

     1.  Work abroad

     2.   Meet my knight in shining armor

     3.   Get married

     4.   Have kids 

     5.   Have a travel vacation (local or international)

     6.   Organize my family reunion

     7.   Save money for future renovation of my acquired house & lot

     8.   Buy a Nikon compact digital camera for daily use

     9.   Have a Nikon DLSR camera 

   10.   More savings and investment 

I'm looking forward and hopeful for a favorable and blessed year on this Year of the Rabbit. I will keep my fingers crossed for all of my wishes.

Unhappy

Unhappy? Is it normal to feel this way? I hope so. I'm sure I'm not alone in this kind of feeling. I don't deny that every now and then I feel this way. There are things I wanted to happen and hope for it but it failed. And it depresses me a lot. I want to scream. I want to cry out loud. Until when I'll be waiting for my utmost wish in life? Sometimes I found myself soaked in a pail of hatred and pain. Keep wondering why the lucky star is keeping away with me. Is it worth waiting for uncertain thing? Yes! A lot of people keep on saying that. I believe on it. But I just can't ignore the sting of disappointment and frustration whenever I feel weak. I need to be strong. I need to keep my faith and hold on to God's promise. That's the only best thing I can do now.

Looking on the Bright Side!

I woke up this morning feeling refreshed and  restored. I look forward on the days ahead  and view life through rose-colored glasses. Being optimistic and looking on the bright side of life make me inspired each day. I couldn't fathom the peacefulness and serenity I felt. I said to myself I am now ready to unfold another chapter of my life. It is true that life is uncertain and sometimes our laid plans go astray. But there is also certain  thing that we should hold on to. Jeremiah 29:11 tells me, "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Faith and prayer are always the best weapon we could have in order for us to walk into right direction wherein God will lead us.

Last night, before I went to bed I said a prayer and gently close my eyes and sleep. When I woke up, a renewal of physical strength and spiritually at peace enveloped my whole being. I told myself that I will embrace what God wants to happen in my life. Then I prepared and went off to work enthusiastically.  When I googled some information about something I need to know, I'm glad I found a lot. I don't know but there is uncertain feeling I can't explain. It feels like God is guiding and showing me the way so that I would understand what's ahead of me. I have a feeling that great thing will be coming on my way soon and He wants me to be ready on it. And thinking of such blessing, I could not find enough words to utter. But of course, I will always be thankful for everything.

Short Talk with a Guidance Counselor

Today, it might be an ordinary day for someone else but for me it's a special one. It is because I had a great short talk with a guidance counselor here at my workplace. I went to her office and we had a closed-door short talk about ourselves, our needs and wants. I get along very well with her that's why I'm confident enough to tell her my feelings, longings and desires of my heart. I felt a sense of relief after we talked because of such words of wisdom and advices she'd given me. I really appreciate her for giving me a fraction of her precious time in listening on my woes. She understands how I felt and she shared with me her past situation she'd faced before just like what I have right now. I thank her for giving me encouraging words and a piece of advice that would lift up my spirit. And she keep on telling me that whichever place or life situation we are in right now is God's will and He would definitely guide and lead us to the perfect place and situation He prepared for us.

Before I bid goodbye and thank her for the time, she even asked me what's my prayer request. I answered her with a smile and by that she understands what I really mean.