It was a fine Good Friday when my brother and I talked over the cellular phone. We talked about his plan of going back to school this coming June. I also asked him about some updates on the lives of our relatives and was told they're all good. After our short talk, I felt bad deep inside realizing that my own life isn't good enough despite of such hard work and sacrifices I've made. I felt worthless, pitied myself and burst into tears when suddenly shadow of my childhood years flashed back into my mind. It was a past situation filled with helplessness, insecurities and greatest fear to reveal the darkest side of my life which I have had carried for so long and until now still haunting me once in a while. I sobbed for a moment until things calm down and I felt better.
After a while, I turned on the television and joined the solemn observance of Holy Friday by watching the live telecast of "7 Last Words" on ABS-CBN and meditating the words of God. These are the final phrases of Jesus on the Cross:
- Father, forgive them, for they do not know what they are doing. (Luke 23:34)
- Today you will be with me in paradise. (Luke 23:43)
- Woman, behold thy son; behold thy mother. (John 19:26-27)
- My God, my God, why have You forsaken me? (Mark 15:34)
- I thirst! (John 19:28)
- It is finished. (John 19:30)
- Father, into Your hands I commend my spirit. (Luke 23:46)
Father, into Your Hands is my destiny. Your words will be my light of hope in the darkness of my life and refreshing water in the thirstiness of my spirit. In every stair of my life there will be a cross of trials, but I do not fear to take hope for You, God, is with me forever.
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My friend, often times as humans we are more sensitive and very emotional though we may feel happy and joyful at times being sad and hurt are the most influential emotions we have. It overcomes all the laughter's we made and can turn this in a snap into tears. Maybe because this kind of emotion is the strongest one, were we feel that we really are human. All these pains and tears we shed is also the reason why we care, we comprehend and become stronger. I can never take away the pain you felt yet what I can offer is a shoulder for you to lend on a hand to hold. Above all we both know that the LORD will never forsake us and though we may sometimes lose track of understanding some circumstances that had happen, we know at the end of the day that it happened for a greater cause. I pray for your peace of heart and mind my friend. That you may lift it all up to HIM and if sometime you may feel down again you know HE will be listening and will always guide your way.
There are many aspects of life some of joyful and some of painful. In all aspects and circumstances God remains with us so we should not lose the faith on God and i like your thought.
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